It's five am
The only sound in the room is the IV pump and the ringing in my ears. The light is just a little green light flashing with the words MAINTENANCE FLUID scrolling like a marquee. Every once and a while I hear my husband take a deep breath. He's not snoring. That's rare. I've been having chest pains for three days. Today they are better then two nights ago. Two nights ago I thought my sternum was broken. Feels like heart problems again from my bleeding disorder. I'm ignoring them because I want to be here for my daughter. I don't want her alone. I don't want her with someone that may be negative, bring drama, or make her feel bad because they have to be here too. I know this is all going to catch up with me but, fuck it, walk a mile in my shoes! Don't stand there throwing empty suggestions. My doctor said my body is full of the stress hormone cortisol. Hopefully exercising will help but the stress is making my belly swell, ache, burn and turn. There's...